Chuy — It's crazy here. I wouldn't want anyone to live here. When I first got here, I thought I was on another planet. It was hard. I've been here 13 years already. It's still hard. I can't get a job here — I'm too old. I can't stand for a long time or walk far. I can't sit for a long time because my knees get stiff. I take a lot of medications in the morning for pain. My knees are all cut up from the accident. By 2-3-5 o'clock, I can barely walk. I have a car — my kids bought it for me — but I'm trying to sell it because I need the money.
Some days are harder than others. If I didn't have my family I don't know what I would do. My mom helps me a lot. My wife helps me and my kids help me. If it wasn't for them, I would get no help from nobody.
I talk to my family [in San Diego] every day. They're good kids. I'm blessed. I'm happy they did not turn out like me. I try to help people. I'm not out to hurt anyone. If I can help instead of hurt, I'd rather help, you know? I stay away from problems. If I can straighten out a problem, I do. I think I help more people than they help me, but that's ok. I always say that payment is from up above. I always do everything from the heart, not because I'm waiting for something in return. I just try to do my best.
I believe in God. I don't go to church every day but I believe in God. We all gotta believe in something. God is my strength. I give thanks to God for everything — the good, the bad, everything. I give thanks to God for the bad because I know the bad is not his fault. I'm the one that's doing it. Sometimes I do things that I don't want to do, you know? But He doesn't make us do anything. We do it. He gave us the right to choose. I talk to God every day — every day, every day, every day for as long as I can remember. Every night, before I go to sleep, I give thanks to God. I thank Him for giving me that one more day, for all the things He's given me. I thank God for just being alive, for just letting me breathe. And I ask for forgiveness for whatever wrong that I've done. He doesn't blame us for whatever we do, He forgives us. He's a good God.